When did we see each other face-to-face? Not until you saw into my cracks and I saw into yours. Before that, we were just looking at ideas of each other, like looking at your window shade but never seeing inside. But once the vessel cracks, the light can get in. The light can get out.
Paper Towns - John Green (via quote-book)
The people that are inclined to hate are also inclined to be losers.
” I LOVE sharing my coffee with you. WILL you STILL LOVE ME in the MORNING??”…
I was down my dreams were wearing thin
When you’re lost where do you begin
My heart always seemed to drift from day to day
Looking for the love that never came my way
Then you smiled and I reached out to you
I could tell you were lonely too
One look and then it all began for you and me
The moment that we touched I knew that there would be
Two less lonely people in the world
And it’s gonna be fine
Out of all the people in the world
I just can’t believe you’re mine
In my life where everything was wrong
Something finally went right
Now there’s two less lonely people
In the world tonight
Just to think what I might have missed
Looking back how did I exist
I dreamed, still I never thought I’d come this far
But miracles come true, I know ‘cause here we are
Tonight I fell in love with you
And all the things I never knew
Seemed to come to me somehow
Baby, love is here and now there’s
SKY…
August 26, 2009. 1:45 AM
I saw you for the very first time. And I was mesmerized by your beauty. You are so beautiful. So perfect… so vulnerable to pain.
You are so perfect in every way. From your tiny fingers, to your delicate, fragile nape. Every strand of your hair, is a blessing.
But I cannot keep you. For you are not mine… I cannot keep you. But I would really want to.
I LOVE YOU, my darling baby. You are my child. My baby boy…
But you know I cannot have you. I don’t hold the universe. This world will only hurt you.
‘til the next time we meet… I hope I could be your mother. your father. everything that a perfect, little angel would need.
Believe it or not, I LOVE YOU.
And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can’t take my eyes off of you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off of you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes…
And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We’ll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower’s daughter
The pupil in denial
I can’t take my eyes off of you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off of you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes off you
I can’t take my eyes…
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can’t take my mind off of you
I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind off of you
I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind…
My mind…my mind…
‘Til I find somebody new
SWEETEST DOWNFALL…
She was about to leave the apartment. She figured, she doesn’t have a place there anymore. When He pulled her back inside the room and gave her a look she couldn’t resist to love.
” I don’t want you to go. “ He breathed.
” I’m not supposed to be here anymore. Please let me go. “ Then slowly, gently pulled her right hand from his clasp.
” I love HIM. “ He said it with desperation in his voice. Slightly amused and tormented.
” I know. That’s why you have to let me go. I mean, I have to let you go. “ Her trembling voice betrayed all her emotions. Oh God, please not now. I don’t want to cry in front of him. She thought it would be best if she didn’t. The lesser the drama, the lesser the pain.
” But I need you. Please stay. “… He retorted. He look so sad, wanting, needing.
” That’s the problem here, you just need me. I don’t have to be here because you need me.” the tears, stubborn as they are, flows down, gushing out of her eyes… relentlessly.
” I need you. Please, please. “. Just like a child he begged.
” You know what, call me when you figured things out. But please for now, let me go. “… And with the strength she didn’t know she have, she pulled away from him.
Walking away was the hardest part. She knows she wouldn’t take that call anymore. She have to be firm. She needed to heal. She needed to get away. Because if she didn’t, she would always be the “SPECTATOR” in his life, NEVER A PARTNER. She’s just a shock absorber. An occassional lover. And she knows that she had given more than her body… And her heart, secretly.
“I’VE BEEN BIDING MY TIME,BEEN SO SUBTLY KIND,
I GOT TO THINK SO SELFISHLY,’COS YOU’RE THE FACE INSIDE OF ME.
I’VE BEEN BIDING MY DAYS,YOU SEE EVIDENTLY IT PAYS,
I’VE BEEN A FRIEND, WITH UNBIASED VIEWS, THEN SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU.
SO NOW HE’S GONE RUSTY, YOU’RE BORED AND BEMUSED.
YOU WANNA DO SOMEONE ELSE, SO YOU SHOULD BE BY YOURSELF,
INSTEAD OF HERE WITH ME… SECRETLY.
- Skunk Anansie ( Secretly )
LILAC WINE…
He went out for a drink, after a heavy, stressful day from a stinky job.
At the bar he sat alone. Then his eyes caught this pretty lady in white across the sea of unfamiliar faces. He move closer. The lady was alone. He come over and introduced himself. The lady smiled back at him.
He said. ” I’m … “ while extending a warm hand to her. She cautioned him to silence.
A ” Ssshhhh…. “ — from her. And he’s completely under her spell. Smooth and warm like silk.
She smiled. ” No names tonight…” and patted the empty seat beside her. Motioning him to settle down.
Her eyes, everything about her captivates him. Enticing. Seducing him.
They stayed for a while in the bar. The mindless chatter over random things. Ahhh, the same old routine. He thought. Drink, chat, and then fuck. He smiled.
After some time, they called it a night. And wend their way out of the crowded bar and into the cold night.
The next morning. He woke up with a headache. ALONE.
But with an aching head, empty stomach and yearning heart… he sigh*
He touched the cold space beside him. Trying to reminisce the warm body of that lovely lady. Was it real? or something that his sad and deserted soul, lead him to believe.
Without an argument in mind, he figured to make himself a coffee…
with the memory of that lovely lady who left him mysteriously in the middle of the night.
” I drink much more than I ought to drink,because it brings me back to you…
Lilac wine is sweet and heady, like my love, Lilac wine, I feel unsteady, like my love, Listen to me… I cannot see clearly…”…
REMEMBERING…
” Remembering not to fall in love with you is the hardest task on my to-do list.”…
She loves to drive around the neighborhood. Nothing special really.
Just the mere thought of having some thing to do that very day, gave her an innate strength to pull herself up from the bed, put on some decent top and grab her favorite mustard-colored jacket and the car keys.
She ignites the machine, ROAR* ( boy! how she misses that sound*)
She takes a deep breath, and then slowly step on the pedal… and flick the radio on.
We moved too fast but I had no sign, I would try to turn the hands of time
Then look to you for the reason why…The love we had passed me by…
And as the sun would set you would rise, Fall from the sky into paradise
Is there no light in your heart for me? You’ve closed your eyes, you no longer see…
” I heart Chicane!”… She thought. What a perfect song for a perfect day.
With a smile, she drives away. Smoothly, steadily. No mishaps. No worries.
Everything is Perfect. So it seems.
As she turns around the bend… (a 15 minute distance from her block) Everything changes.
The last words she might have heard were…
Could not give me the secrets of your heart and of your mind,
In the darkness that surrounds me now there is no peace of mind
Your careless words undo me, leave the thought of us behind….
Not really sure.
It’s not an ordinary day, losing a friend…
Cassiopeia.
She will always be lost in the power of Pollux’ embraces. But she will never taste the same sweetness or the same warmth. He doesn’t love her anymore. What’s more simpler than that?…
Cassiopeia. Beautiful. Sweet, sweet, warm woman. Even the vastness of the sky will fall for her. The stars envy her.
But she will never notice them.
Cassiopeia. BURNED. FALLEN. Longing for the sweet, warm embraces of Pollux.
But then,
Where art thou, POLLUX?
LIPS OF AN ANGEL…
She woke up this morning, with the same ache.
With the same, tortuous, serpentine-like struggle of emotions…
She needed to heal.
The poison is killing her. Every day. One moment to the next.
There’s no treatment for this. This DISEASE.
It has already consumed her. HEART, BODY and SOUL.
Now, the only sensible thing to do… IS WAIT.
Now, she waits for redemption.
But she knows, IT WILL NEVER COME.
Because she let herself go, she gave in.
JUST FOR A KISS.
That searing of cold, very cold lips, against her warm, trembling ones.
That KISS… killed her.
“If you come back for Christmas, which I hope you do, can we pretend it’s only been a day and pick up off where we left off?”…
